The new beggining

 

Anyone who feed me has my respect, I said looking into his eyes while I fixed the tables around the restaurant. He laughed about it and he could not stop staring at my boobs underlined by a leather black corset. I continued welcoming the guests, smiling at them and somehow drinking coffee and checking my messages on my Apple watch.

Sometimes I don’t know if I want to respond to those messages or just do it by inner, because nothing else can fill up the empty spaces to be towards a glass or a monotonous person. Any emoji or horoscopes advice result entertaining when is about the daily routine. I miss my students back in Colombia, I still remember their eloquences and heavy jokes, particularly in kids, so natural and spontaneous like it was an uthopy. I never had kids, because I decided to be a teacher.

There are some days that I don’t know what I want, who am I, where am I from or why am I doing here, but I just keep going. Other beer, Rodolfo Aicardi, fuck it. Well, I never thought loneliness could affect me in any sense. Because I thought I was self-sufficient enough to travel to first world and do whatever I want, in certain way I did, but, like everything in life, something is always missing, is like, even if with try our best is never going to be complete in every sense. I’m not smart enough to be sarcastic and it’s difficult for me to deal with people attitudes and behaviors. I can’t stand the lack of empathy or grateful. I don’t know where in world could get a friend like Stacy. She was blondie, green eyes, half American half irish. She was a whole story, bright and beautiful. I met her at the beautiful place of lake George. As soon as the earth spit me over there, I was grabbing a bottle of wine and a nicotine vape, everything was different from I expected, big houses made in wood, big yards, some houses had boats parked in the back yard.

Being sad is a nice mindset to inspire yourself to write. Maybe when I have died my texts will be famous because sounds stupid but, the things you do when you die are somehow worthier. Back to the story, I landed in a magical place, full of rednecks and chipmunks. The sky uses to have multiple colors and the horizons full of Adirondacks. My friend Kim and me were all over that place doing multiple drugs and living nature adventures. Talking about the guys that we’ve loved and the drugs we’ve made.