Anyone who feed me has my respect, I said looking into his
eyes while I fixed the tables around the restaurant. He laughed about it and he
could not stop staring at my boobs underlined by a leather black corset. I
continued welcoming the guests, smiling at them and somehow drinking coffee and
checking my messages on my Apple watch.
Sometimes I don’t know if I want to respond to those
messages or just do it by inner, because nothing else can fill up the empty
spaces to be towards a glass or a monotonous person. Any emoji or horoscopes
advice result entertaining when is about the daily routine. I miss my students
back in Colombia, I still remember their eloquences and heavy jokes, particularly
in kids, so natural and spontaneous like it was an uthopy. I never had kids, because I decided to be a teacher.
There are some days that I don’t know what I want, who am I,
where am I from or why am I doing here, but I just keep going. Other beer, Rodolfo
Aicardi, fuck it. Well, I never thought loneliness could affect me in any sense.
Because I thought I was self-sufficient enough to travel to first world and do
whatever I want, in certain way I did, but, like everything in life, something is
always missing, is like, even if with try our best is never going to be
complete in every sense. I’m not smart enough to be sarcastic and it’s difficult
for me to deal with people attitudes and behaviors. I can’t stand the lack of
empathy or grateful. I don’t know where in world could get a friend like Stacy.
She was blondie, green eyes, half American half irish. She was a whole story,
bright and beautiful. I met her at the beautiful place of lake George. As soon
as the earth spit me over there, I was grabbing a bottle of wine and a nicotine
vape, everything was different from I expected, big houses made in wood, big
yards, some houses had boats parked in the back yard.
Being sad is a nice mindset to inspire yourself to write. Maybe when I have died my texts will be famous because sounds stupid but, the things you do when you die are somehow worthier. Back to the story, I landed in a magical place, full of rednecks and chipmunks. The sky uses to have multiple colors and the horizons full of Adirondacks. My friend Kim and me were all over that place doing multiple drugs and living nature adventures. Talking about the guys that we’ve loved and the drugs we’ve made.
